Reaping the Harvest

Waiting. All year I've been in a season of waiting and preparing...for what, I didn't know. I didn't know about certain relationships. I didn't know about when I was graduating, definitely didn't know about grad school. Didn't know about summer missions. I didn't like not knowing, and I told God every day that I felt about it. Obviously, He patiently spoke to me though His word and I eventually accepted the fact that I just needed to wait. Waiting is not a bad thing. If anything, it's beneficial to one's Christian walk. Waiting gives you endurance, patience, and it makes you trust in God's plan. It also makes you realize that it's not all about you. That hit me big.

Jesus waited about thirty years before he went out and did his ministry. No, he didn't sit around and do nothing, but he had to wait and prepare. How much more should we?

The season of waiting is over for me at the moment. Now life is moving so fast that I can barely think straight. In one day, I found out that I was accepted to MSU, found a roommate at MSU, and also was told where I would be placed for summer missions. It was a great day. Since then, even more things have fallen into place and I am in awe. More than that, I feel absolutely STUPID. Why did I doubt God? Why was I so impatient? Why did I act the way I did? Why was I so depressed? Did God not promise that He would provide?

So, when the next season of waiting comes, I'll remember what the Lord has done thus far. He is so good, and I do not deserve any of it. Even if I wasn't accepted, even if things had gone terribly wrong, it is for His purpose and for His glory. The good AND the bad. It's all for Him.