I can't think of one person who actually enjoys change. Every transition in my life has always been especially tough on me. Divorce, moving, break ups. Up until now, most of the decisions in my life were decided for me, and most of those decisions to this day I hate and would have wished for something different. But now it's my turn to control my life, and wouldn't ya know all these bad, life altering decisions has made me a little indecisive. I wonder why.
It's a good thing I'm not really in control of my life. I gave my life over to my Heavenly Father 6 years ago. That doesn't mean that I don't like to take the reins now and again. I see over and over again at various instances in my life and realize that those heartbreaking moments could have been avoided if I had completely given up control, or rather acting like I was in control. Hard lessons to learn, but it's all about sharpening knives.
But what now? I have many life changing decisions in the very near future (more like NOW), and there's no time to be indecisive. As I've said many times, I wish God would send me a letter telling me exactly what to do. If I keep this up, I'm going to be sitting on the couch watching Spongebob for the rest of my life. That's not what I want. That's not what God wants.
So what does God want? I've been seeking, asking, and knocking. All I know is what the word tells me.
Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God- 1 Corinthians 10:31
Go then and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit- Matthew 28:19
So I'm praying. And if you are my brother or sister in Christ, I could definitely using more prayers.
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